2 weeks later...

INFANT LOSS RIBBON

Well it has been two weeks since Landon was born. We have had a lot of support and friends/family offer to do anything for us. For that, I say thank you for everything yal have done for us. I have been asked a few questions about everything and thought I might clarify (I am an open book, so please if you have a question, just ask it)...

1. Yes, I was put into labor just like any other girl and had to go through the heart wrenching pain of labor and not having my Landon at the end to take home.
2. We did get to hold him and see him. He truly was beautiful and even had dimples!! (Oh how I love Ryan and Landon's dimples. They truly make my heart melt!!)
3. The Doctor told us that most of the time they do not know why it happened. Second trimester fetal demise has a 57% of us never finding out why or what happened that made Landon's heart stop beating.
4. One in Four women experience an infant loss, we have found out that many of our close friends and army family have experienced losing a baby. We morn their loss but have found their stories inspirational.
5. The future: Yes, we plan on having 2 more babies. We plan on trying as soon as possible. We will never forget our first born little 5 inch long bundle of joy in heaven, but we certainly want to experience the greatness of being pregnant again.

We have a good hours and bad hours... the Army has been great and gave Ryan off last week (they did not take any of our leave time!!). This was a great help for us. We are realizing that the Army won't always be amazing but they do take care of their own. We have a military family here. They have made us food, brought me flowers and just checked in on us. We truly love them just as we love our blood family.

Ryan and I both got tattoos this week. Mine is on my left ankle on the inside and Ryan's is on his left arm, on the inside of his bicep. We both wanted something to outwardly show our love for Landon. We understand that not everyone shares the same thoughts about this action, but we just ask that you understand this is what we decided to do. I love our tattoos and feel such love and warmth when I see them.

We always have and always will love you Landon

xoxo,

Mommy & Daddy