The past month has been the start of a new chapter in our lives. Landon has been gone 2 months now, and it feels like forever since I held him in my arms. I feel like everything since Thanksgiving is just a blur. I am just starting to get where everything isn't a big blur. I can't even believe it is already February. It is getting warm here at Bragg and we never really had a winter, so it's nice to open the windows and let the sun shine in.
Time just sort of froze for me when Landon was born. I am doing 'good' most days. I say that the best I can because we will never be okay. He is the cutest little boy I have ever seen and will always be. He looked just like his daddy. Landon even had the huge dimples like Ryan has... so we will never be okay because a piece of my heart will always be in heaven. But I am learning how to adapt to this new life. The life of being a parent to an amazing and beautiful baby... that is in heaven.
We now live on base at Fort Bragg. This was the perfect decision for us. We planned on moving here to be able to have room for our growing family and ended up moving here because we needed a fresh start. Organizing, cleaning and decorating has been so relaxing for me.
I have to admit that I love moving with the Army, we did not have to pack or move anything. They took care of it all for us. This was great for me because I still have very low iron and energy is not my strong point right now! Ryan is now about 5-7 minutes from work now. He comes home after PT and has breakfast, and even comes home for lunch. It is so nice to see him throughout the day!
I took this semester off of school to rest, relax and get healthier. Ryan is still going to school this semester, full time in fact! I nanny for a family with 2 little girls Monday through Friday. I feel like it just gives me hope to see what we will have in the future. I love children so much. That is not to say that I will not finish my interpreting degree, because I will. :) Just taking 1 semester off to get everything back on track!
It may seem crazy to some of you that live in the civilian world and work full time. No, I don't just sit on the couch all day at home. Ryan will tell you that between nanny'ing 5 days a week and being an Army Wife- I work a full time job plus some! It feels good to know what I want in life though. I am so excited for the future and to give Landon a brother and a sister someday. I never imagined my life would turn out this way but I have an amazing husband, a beautiful baby boy in heaven waiting for me and the best pup in the world.
We can't always control the cards we are dealt but we can control how we react to them. You have to make a decision as to if you are going to live your life or let the bad things ruin it...
*We are taking life day by day and counting our blessings along the way.*
